realisations

I have to remember to add my bday pictures from FB to my account, everyone elses pics are so funny and I hardly remember most of them being taken. its crazy!

everything is pretty crazy like always, still where I want to be in life. is that just a permanent condition?

I was talking to Robbie on FB tonight about everything and I guess I realised that I don't have many ways to define myself independent of the people I love and care for. I define myself in reference of who I am to my family and Adam and my friends. But who am I or who would I be without them? I dont know. maybe that's good, maybe thats bad. I said to him that so much of who i am is entwined with my relationship with adam because we met so young and kinda grew together. who i am and who he is, has something to do with who we are as a couple. i guess I need to get back on track with what I need to do. which i'll do right now.

and though he suggested that there is so much that i wont get to experience and do because i'm getting married so young. i dont care, there are so many things i would have missed out on if i wasnt in love with adam. and like i said, it doesnt matter if i end up part of the 70% who get divorced because no matter what i'll know that right now and for the past four years, i've loved adam more than i knew a person could love. i've loved him with everything and he's loved me with everything. he frustrates me and sometimes we dont get each other but i wouldnt change him for the world!