musings

Adam will be here in just a few days. I'm really looking forward to seeing him, this is what we've been waiting for, praying and hoping for since we first met. In the beginning we had no clue on how we were going to make it to the same place at the same time, then the magic happened. It's exciting but strange and scary too. We've never lived together, we've never even lived near each other. He'll be completely alone in a new country all except for me and the people in my life. I can't help but feel that might be scary for a person...but if it is for him he's not opened up to me about it.

I'm spending my days wondering what I'm going to do with my life, with myself. I'll be going back to school in the fall but right now I've taken time off so that I'll have money coming in until Adam and I are set up. But I know for sure that I want to go into Politics. I just care way too much about society and about having the best people doing the best possible job for society. I watched this documentary about the most dangerous school in New Orleans. Just about the lack of hope and opportunity. Adam and I have VERY different opinions on such social issues, let's just say he's into a "every man for himself" kind of Republicanism. But I sit there and watch a documentary like that and wonder why more isn't done to prevent such dismal situations. It frustrates me that so many kids don't make it through high school because they get pregnant or get killed. Or that they just don't think they can do anything with their lives. A young girl gets pregnant by a guy who doesn't stick around and even though she's seen it before with her own mother or sister or cousin, she still falls into the same trap. Of course, teenage pregnany happens everywhere and for all kinds of reasons. But education, sex education and life education would surely stop that from happening. I can tell you for sure that I don't wanna get pregnant right now, at 23 I'm way too young. I want to enjoy myself and travel and be able to do something at the drop of a hat.

I don't believe that little old me can save the world, but I'm sure gonna try and make a difference. Shouldn't everyone.

Adam got his visa. I still can't get over how quick the whole process was. After months of us worrying and stressing that we didn't have everything together just right. That we didn't have enough money. We got our visa! It only took them a few days to approve and send it back. The thing we've dreamed of for so long. The invisible bridge that would bring Adam and I together and finally let us live our lives together. Its crazy, its something I've wanted for so long. Wanted to bad, its hard to believe that it's happening. He'll be here in just a few short weeks and the best part...I won't have to let him go again. He'll be mine and me his, for the rest of our lives.