Today was a rather uneventful day. Work and home. I feel like I need to take up another activity that will bring me some kind of pleasure, a hobby of some kind. But there is not much that I am bothered or can afford to do, usually I like to read, but that doesn't get me out of the house. I need a break from my routine of work, home, work, home, work, home. Well, you get it. And its dull. Maybe I should arrange a girly dinner each month, have some fun with my girl friends. Who knows. I would like to be able to spend more time with my husband. Right now, Adam and I are on different schedules. Usually, when I'm at work he's at home and when I'm at home he's at work. And as he works the late shift and will soon be working nights, when I'm ready for bed he's wide awake and when I'm wide awake he's asleep. I really hope this doesn't continue on for too long, else we'll have no clue what's going on in each others lives. Mind you, Adam has always been a night owl where as I like to be tucked under the covers by 10pm. He'd rather go out and really, I'd rather stay in. His body temperature is always so cold and mine is so hot. Just little differences.

I am about to get my license changed over to my married name, only cost £20 so I don't mind. I am still putting off doing my passport because it costs a small fortune that we don't have right now. Wednesday is pay day and that means time to pay all the bills, maybe there might be a little something left over so I can treat myself to a new outfit. My wardrobe is so outdated. Mind you, nothing fits me since I've put on so much weight. Need to shift the pounds before the summer arrives properly. Always a weight issue.

My three goals for 2010;

• Go back to University *check*
• Loose Weight ****erm...
• Pass my driving test ****erm ...

So far two out of three, but I have set myself the goal of August to have achieved the last two. Really, I dont think I'm asking for much. It'll just take a little will power! xx

This month marked my one year wedding anniversary, April 18th to be exact. To think that a whole year has gone by already is something I can completely believe. Because it has been a difficult year and Adam & I have been through a great deal. Both as individuals and as part of a duo. I've had health problems and Adam has had a very difficult time finding steady work. As a couple who never really had the opportunity to live together and get to know one another at that level, it has all be quite a lot. We were and suppose still are, in the process of adjusting to one another, so if you add on top of that other external stress, it makes for a turbulent year. And I had to wonder if our love and committment to each other was strong enough to make it through. We regularly have to take time out and seriously discuss the state of our marriage and reconnect with one another. I didn't expect for married life to always be wonderful and rosy, I knew we would have difficult times and I'm glad that Adam and I are able to always remain on the same page of wanting us to succeed.
I know that as a married couple, we still have lots to learn, after all we are just babies in the marriage game. Lot's to learn about what we want from each other and lot's to learn about how to best get along and make time for each other. But I know, with all that we've been through already, we can always come back to a place of love. And as long as we have that, we will always have a reason to keep on going.

Adam & Shermeen married since 18/04/09