Living in Limbo

I really need to update my journal, the pictures in my about me section and my "other journals" section. But you know when you just can't be bothered? Its been almost three weeks since I ordered broadband from AOL...my wireless router still hasn't arrived yet. I'm giving them until Friday before I make a call, we've had a postal strike and I know that did affect the post some but it should be here by now. Anyway, once I get my broadband back everything will be much quicker and I'll be able to visit journals. As it stands at the moment it just takes ages to load anything with lots of graphics and I can't watch any of the videos you guy post. I know, its horrible. But isn't it funny how a few years ago just have dial up internet was a luxury? Just having regular cable set you apart. Now its all high speed internet access and hundreds upon hundreds of channels that you can pause and rewind all without a cassette or dvd. My how technology changes. Let's hope we start getting cures for cancer and reverses for pollution.

Things with me of late have been...ok...I still feel like my journal name is fitting because I still feel like i'm stuck in the middle of where I want and need to be. And I think i've passed that feeling on to Adam, the past few days he's been feeling really anxious and restless about not being here yet. About not have a concrete plan or schedule for when he can be here. I find that slightly amusing since a long time ago he told me he wasn't the planning type, that he'd rather fly by the seat of his pants. But I think the whole, three almost four years apart thing is getting to him. I don't know what I'd do if we got to five or six years apart. Immigration is tough, really tough. And its hard to know where to turn for legitimate support that isn't just about how much money they can get from you.

I've been working so much lately, trying to save money and pay off some bills. I've come to realise I don't like working...I don't dislike my job but I'm not into the whole getting up everyday, working 9-5, coming home, cooking, sleeping, getting up everyday, working 9-5...you get the picture. That's what I don't get about people who win millions on the lotto and then continue working. I think you all know where i'd be if I won the lotto...oh and of course, i'd have a wonderful destination wedding to which you'd all be invited...ok, can't start thinking about what would happen if I won the lotto cause i'll just end up in a funk.

Well, I don't suppose I have much of anything to say. Gonna head over to Facebook and then get ready for work. I hope everyone in Jland is doing well, i'll be stopping by soon.

Simple Girlie

 

Miss Chanae and Miss Syan

Miss Chanae

I just realised that I haven't shown any pics of my beautiful Chanae yet, so I thought I'd post some. She's so adorable and just turned 5months. The first one is of her and Syan, i'm sure most of you remember when Syan was born I posted loads of pics of her...and look at her now, she's only two but she looks huge in comparison to Chanae.

Its funny cause you kind of forget just how tiny babies are when they're first born and how they don't really do much of anything. But Chanae is very alert for her age and already has her two front teeth. She's had problems gaining weight but she's getting there now so hopefully buy Christmas she'll be nice and fat.

When that first picture was taken, Syan was just amazed by Chanae. She doesn't often get to see babies and she was watching my SIL holding Chanae and was holding her dolly the same way. Then she asked if she could hold her...I guess a doll just isn't the same. Mind you, these days you can get the ones that cry and talk and poop and all that jazz...

I have to say, i'm awfully tired. Thankfully my sister treated my brother to Fish & Chips so I don't have to cook. Just gonna curl up in front of the tv and watch a few dvds until Adam calls. Simple life for a Simple Girlie.

Tags: Chanae, Syan

Web Cams and Babies

Is it silly of me to FINALLY buy a web cam just so I can attempt a video entry? Can you believe it, Adam and I went three years of long distance love (and we're still not together yet, don't want to confuse anybody by using 'went') without ever using web chat or internet calling such as skype. Well, I just really wanna give this whole video entry thing a go, think i'll get quite a kick out of it. But first I have to wait for my wireless modem to arrive, how I miss broadband!

I met with Shadi and Charlotte and master Reece today. I call him Reeces Pieces cause he's cute enough to eat. We were walking around looking at clothes this afternoon, everything looked so cute that it made me want to have a baby. I saw these cute little booties, one foot said...50% mommy...and the other said...50% daddy...and then underneath said...100% ME! I did actually think of buying it and putting it away for later. I do have a baby bib that says...Made In America With British Parts...I brought that more than a year ago. I know, strange. And trust me, i'm not one of those girlies who'll get pregnant because they want a baby to love them or because they look cute. I know how much hard work having a baby is and i'm not ready for that yet, i'm still young and I wanna enjoy it just being Adam and I for a while. Of course, if it happens it happens but we're being real careful to see that it doesn't.

Shadi really makes me laugh, she has no babies, but she picked out this complete outfit for a baby girl. She didn't buy it, cause then guys will think she's crazy! lol! but she has names picked out...Sofia and Coco...I said to her that if I beat her to it i'll steal her names! lol! I won't but she's so easy to wind up!

I think Adams doing ok in Wisconsin, its starting to get cold so he's buying insulated work clothes and has to have some work done on his car to help it survive the winter. He's been through so much so young, but i'm so very proud of my future hubby. I honestly, don't know a better man than him and I'm so lucky that he's mine.        Who wants to come to a party in London? when Adam comes over i'll be so happy, we'll finally get to celebrate our engagment and of course all of jland is invited. Don't worry if you can't make the party...they'll be a wedding in 3yrs time. Gives you plenty of time to save up for a plane ticket and wedding gift! lol!

Well, i'm gonna go browse some journals. I hope everyone out there is doing well. So many recently have lost those they love, its such a horrible experience loosing someone you love. Esp if you didn't get the chance to tell or show them just how much they meant to you. But I know they're in the arms of God and they know love like none of us on earth have ever experienced. I pray that God helps you with your grief.

Tags: Adam, Babies

What is it with Americans and Seinfeld?

Wow, so much has happened since my last entry. I have no idea where to begin...I guess I should clarify that Adam and I aren't together yet. Still doing the trans-atlantic thing but we're still going strong. Recently, I've reached a whole new level of realisation. In that I've come to see just how much I mean to him and just how much he means to me. I often find myself falling deeper in love with him for so many different reasons, but he inspires me to be a better person, to be the person that i've longed to be.

I haven't visted any journals yet...sometimes life carries you away...I hope to. I want to check in on how everyones doing. I'm wishing all of you guys love and happiness.