Sherms in the middle of discovering my true beauty ♥

Beauty is not in the face;
beauty is a light in the heart.

I'm used to seeing myself as less than other people. I look around and other girls seem to have an effortless beauty, effortless intelligence, effortless kindness. It's not that I can't be any of those things, its just that it seems to require so much more effort for me than others. And ultimately, I end up feeling like I can't be bothered. That life shouldn't be so difficult, therefore I wasn't meant to be smart, beautiful or always kind. I recognize the possibility that the glimpses I catch of other women, when they're looking stunning, might just be their "glam day" and the other 364 days of the year they look like me: someone who shows like The Swan were created for. But my own insecurities seem to cloud any common sense and I end up looking enviously at all these well put together women. My negative view of myself only hinders me. I start seeing myself a certain way and over a period of days, weeks, months and years, I slowly become that negative image. I am capable of so much more than I give myself credit for but that negative picture of myself prevents me from having the confidence to try and possibly succeed.


I would like to be beautiful and glamorous and perhaps it is the curse of being a woman, that almost every woman out there can find something about her body/features that she would like to change. I do have a rather extensive list but I would like to get to a place in life where I have body confidence. It'll require not just working out and eating healthy but the ability to love the way I was made. To love myself.


I'm ready to change my life, change my perspective. "If you don't like something about yourself, change it" though I think it might be easier said than done, I'm ready to make the lifestyle changes necessary. I often think about who I am and where I am in my life. Decisions I should have made differently. I know mistakes are part of life, you get knocked down, get back up and try again. I'm not sure whether I've said this before or not but I appreciate the difficulties I've faced in life because I can learn from them. My blog name comes from the struggle, the journey I'm on to become the best me I can be. And I know it starts with loving myself and no longer putting myself at the bottom of the list.


In the coming years I hope that Adam and I can build a good life together, we really are quite simple at heart. And though I can name several ways in which we're different, we share the same core family values and do honestly want a simple traditional family life.


In the coming months I'm looking to improve on myself. I want to gain body confidence by loosing weight and learning to love my curves. I want to dedicate more time to my passions, writing short stories and baking. I want to continue on this journey of deepening my faith and I hope when I move I find a good Church. I want to find a career that I enjoy where I can help people, even if that means returning to school. And I want to enjoy my husband and watch my marriage grow and strengthen.